~still photograph...

i love travelling at night... especailly by public transport, when i don't have to worry or look out for anything.

the view outside the train or bus is like a really big pieces of photograph. most of the things are so still sometime u feel like the whole world is paused and u just pass through looking at each and everything more clearly and defined than before. it feels like even things are taking a break and resting to get ready for a brand new day soon...

when the perfect song play in ur player, it would really maje my trip...

~love like air...

today somebody ask me what i think of love?

hmmmm... after pondering on it for some time, i replied, i think love is like air. i realised thats really my best ans at the moment.

love is like air, u need it all the time and u cant love w/o it. its true. no one will be able to survive w/o love. no one will be able to live in the world along and loveless. they will either live miserable or die... thankgoodness air is everywhere! this is what i think.

unfortunately, like air, its never the same, its always changing and moving, but its always there. there's no way to keep the same pieces of air within ourselves. its better to let it go and it might grow and come back to us in different time and form. the more we try to grab hold of it, the lesser we get...

when we are stressed, breate... when we are nervous, breathe, when we are sad, breathe...

~dos and don'ts in cambodia...

back fr cambodia with ying! great trip! loved e trip despite everything else which i am not explaining in this entry. so what am i going to talk bout this entry???? is the do's and don'ts in cambodia. we stayed in okay guesthouse in phnom penh. i believe they explained v clearly what are the dos and don'ts...




firstly, please be aware that some escorts have been known to DRUG and ROB people. so for those who are looking for these kind of experienced, please be warned. the girls there are damn chio! thats despite the super dusty and not so hygenic or clean environment! y?!?!?!? whats their secret?!!??!? every girl we saw on the road or working is damn chio!

then, non profit restaurants or other public places. profits will always be made, not for the goals they say, like children, but for their own benefit. Do not believe everything. ask for NGO licence. ok i admit. i nearly fell for this trick. lucky ying was smarter than me. so dun be like me. be like ying. haha

Moto-bikes and tuk tuk drivers. always negotiate a fix price before you step on a moto-bike or in a tuk tuk. that will avoid problems afterwards. Do not react instant on stories that they are so poor and do not have income, most of them have. do not buy a moto-bike or tuk tuk for them, when you have gone they will sell themselves, because your money will never be used for the reasons you have given it to them. YOU ARE A TOURIST, NOT AN ATM MACHINE. Give respect, but also want respect for yourself. seriously... i never thought tourist will buy a tuk tuk for locals. tourist are so naiive and nice!

Beggers. Be very selective in giving money. most of the time your money will be used for gambling, alcohol and drugs. Yes, children dot hat. the best is to give food or drinks, but open the package and/or cans before you give it otherwise they will sell it. YOU ARE A TOURIST, NOT AN ATM MACHINE. i seriously cannot imagine kids go into alcohol and drugs but i guess it happens...

Children book and flowersellers. Be aware that this is a kind of modern slavery and child abuse. STOP buying and the system will STOP! at first i din think of it this way. but i agree with this solution. at first i thought i am doing a good thing. then i realise its all for the wrong cause. we should stop encouraging them to use children as a source of income! they should be studying in school! no matter how sad or pathetic they seemed or u need the thing they selling anyways don't buy fr them! a lesson i, myself have to learn...

bed bugs! damn it!!!! i ahve the most horrible bed bugs bites ever! sigh... in efforts to save money. suffering...... check ur room and bed before going to bed people!!!!

~500 days of summer...

you should know upfront, this is not a love story

just catch 500 days of summer. it helps watching this show wiithout much expectations i guess... its the kind of movie i would usually give a pass thou i know it would be good. just like p.s i love you. those movies i wouldn't purposely watch. but i would watch if i wanna catch a movie but there's no blockbustors i can watch at that point of time. its characters aren't worth millions of dollars but they are so cute in their own way.

anyways... this whow bout this guy who got dumped. its interesting how its a movie about a guy who is helplessly romantic but got dump. i mean... i would normally link these situations with girls. and i know it happened to guys too. but i think what makes this show so interesting is that its like saying "hei, it happens to we guys too" i think the fact that they use a guy instead a girl makes e show more original.

anyways... i think e show has its funny moments. real and basically helps people to get over break ups. so good for those who need to get over someone. a lil too draggy some parts and long foe my liking. so some parts are boring and slow and meaningless. but overall i think its a good movie worth watching even on weekends! its a show where u have things to discuss and talk with other people after e show ended.

~ceritifed diver alert!ne

i am a certified diver! woohoo~ coolness. diving is more fun than expected. dayang is not as nice as expected. redang is still the best! totally miss redang!!! anyways... DO NOT learn diving at big bubble. esp if u are a girl. totally disgusted by instructors. like live in forest never see girls before. totally make my diving experience imperfect! ggggggggrrrrrrr...

next trip is cambodia with ying! nearly din make it cos we were like to go ot not to go. but dun care liao... bought our plane tix! point of no return! i am so excited! excited for what? read carefully!

"Thunder Ranch shooting range, near Cheoung Ek. Moto drivers, apparently oblivious to the reaction most visitors have, will try to include this in a trip to the killing fields. Rumors abound that cows and other farm animals used to serve as targets, but this is probably no longer the case. Prices range from US$40 for an AK-47 to US$200 for a rocket launcher."

totally coolness! i want to launch rocket too! but i have to think bout it cos of e price! y so expensive???? i am super duper excited! rocket here i come!

~change...

i always thought... if only this were like this or... if only that someone would be kinder, nicer, more patient etc etc etc... but recently i realised, if someone near me do change, i realised it might be a good thing for e world and in general, but i felt like something is lost. for example, you always wished ur friend is nicer to u. but once she became really nice, its no longer e same. then i realised i din like that person cos she's nice or kind or perfect, but i like that person cos she/he is imperfect... wouldn't this world be boring if everyone is perfect? now i no longer wish anyone to be anything other then themselves...

recently i also realised... that i no longer the person i always thought i am. isn't that weird? i always have this image or perception of myself in my head. but recently many people describe me not as what i always thought myself to be. i feel like i am losing myself or more accurately no longer recognise myself. its e queeriest feeling. luckily the description has been nice. that helps...

i think i shd try understand myself better more...

~500th post...

Every morning in Africa, a gazelle wakes up. It knows it must run faster than the fastest lion or it will be killed.

Every morning a lion wakes up. It knows it must outrun the slowest gazelle or it will starve to death.

The moral:

It doesn't matter if you are a lion or a gazelle. When the sun comes up, you better be running.

for my 500th post... so intellectual